..::Blessed Be God::..

+JMJ

Well... I am in a state of mortal sin. Why? Becuase I did not think the Saturday Vigil Mass "good enough". Vigil Mass is WAY better than no Mass at all. Pride stinks. Hopefully it will not be long before I make it to confession, and it looks like it may be Tuesday either in the morning, or later in the evening. If one doesn't work, the other should. Thank God for His Mercy, but now I get to writhe in the pain my own sin has given me. Let this be a time for penance and mortifications.

You know, the pain of being in mortal sin hasn't struck me until just now. This morning, I felt no urge on pain of spiritual death to make it to Mass. I took at least an hour in the shower, which I didn't start until about 10 when the latest Mass starts at 11. After that I just did whatever. I dried my hair, I dilly-dallied in getting dressed, and when I did it was jeans. I could have told my mom I was going to wait until the Youth Mass later that night, but again decided I would feel awfully silly going to that Mass as well. So I didn't say anything. I could have made it to the 5:15 Mass at a parish nearby my school, but I decided that I would end up not being able to visit my grandpa, which I spent most of my time playing in the snow with my little sister. I had no difference in what I did.

Well, confession will be as soon as I can get it! That will hopefully be in a day or two. Perhaps I will also get up in time to also go to Mass, even if I cannot recieve. What a dark state my soul has fallen into.